Thursday, March 22, 2018

A Tribute to Bakersfield-Looking Back Is Like a Pilar of Salty Tears

As I crawled in The Virtual Dumpster I call The Internet...

While making a swimming playlist for this Aerb waterproof mp3 player,

Has 4GB storage. I play full albums to time my laps.
I came across a cool scary clown video. I watched the first version of "It" years ago. I don't know why I have waited so long on the new one? I just think they are going to twist it with graphic gore...or something. My cheater app to see movies did not show it for a long time. They spotlighted the original version. It made me think, they figure you need to see the first before the new one and made it available to watch.
Since the first movie, I have changed. I am scared of clowns, sort of. I still open my eyes in between being scared, I just had to look and feel the fright.,

AdĂȘtue YouTube Channel 
was the first to upload this production by

Andrew Nekrasov

And with Pennywise in mind..this one is worthy of my autoplay.
I am going through some shit.
My heart is into this song. Punks Not Dead? IDK just "not optimistic wearing heavy boots and loud" to quote the great Punk Hunk Henry Rollins. This Bluegrass version is appropriate for my Bluezy persona...and the harmonica I can play these notes until my COPD kicks in.

This song is awesome, but it is hard when your dying friends are still alive...because "If you die, I die, that's the way it is?" I am a drug war veteran the war for me ended when 9/11 began with one final blow on the way to Washington and one night after that.
I chose to stay on peaceful ground. For those in my who want to dance around it and live around it...and suddenly awaken...I am sorry. I have been away a long time. I can not be your Sobriety Walmart Greeter after all these years...This is not some Sleeping Beauty happy ending. While you were asleep and playing with your lives...I was living with mine.
Remember when we thought it was Crass of Christianity when studying the Bible?
 2 John 1:10 If there come any unto you, and bring not this doctrine, receive him not into your house, neither bid him God speed:
 2 John 1:11 For he that biddeth him God speed is partaker of his evil deeds.
 Denise my sister/my friend/ my female Bro Hymn This One is for you.

My doctrine may not be biblical. It is I can't look back and see the sad things that it all ended up as. Career Thug Life it is sad. You are a soldier, but I am not your safe shore to return to. God Speed. I did partake. I found safe shores. May you find yours. It was a long journey to forgive myself.

A part of my heart was always still there knowing you all were dying thinking it was a party...missing just the before it all got too serious YOU.